So...where to begin...
Well, I work at a hospital
In an office
Which may seem relatively normal to most.
And, given my education and training, would lend itself to being sort of predictable.
I graduated from high school, and then college (while working in retail, a costume shop, camp counselor, middle school doing tutoring, and living on a farm). While in college(for community health), I took an EMT course, and given my familial history (my mother wore a uniform and army boots to work at an ambulance service) it seemed kind of a natural progression. Well, I also decided that I was going to attempt to go to college, for round two. I was going to go for my bachelors degree in nursing. And I decided that I could work 40-60 hours a week while trying to go for my bachelors degree. Well, why not? I worked like 40 hours a week while getting my first one, it should have been fine! Especially in EMS...I could go to school, and do homework while I was at work, cuz everyone knows that EMS stands for Earn Money Sleeping. Life was PERFECT!
so, that didn't work...
My grades stunk, i was pooped all the time, and I had a record of staying up for 41 hours, straight, before collapsing into a pile of drool on my computer.
So I decided that I needed to work more than I needed to go to school.
And this really intriguing guy started to work at my job. He was anEMT- intermediate. And seemed like he was pretty cool. We talked, exchanged phone numbers, and had some interesting conversations about family, society, work and education, but nothing that ever would suggest a romantic relationship.
He called me up one night and asked me to share a bottle of wine. I never did drink very much alcohol, and I wanted to spend an evening with a cool guy, have some alcohol, and stay in a safe place. I'd talked to him, I knew him, so I didn't think anything would happen. My naive little self talking...
I got drunk *very very*
Things happened that should NOT have happened, that had some questionable legality to them, but hey, he was a co-worker, an EMT, someone who served the community, so what happened, it was MY fault...I got drunk, i should have been more forceful when i said no, i should have...made different choices...It was my fault
So I retreated into my own little world.
Though, that didn't work either.
So eventually, i kind of spiraled down into my own dark hell
And didn't know how to find my way out.
So I decided to leave my job in the city and the country as an EMT
For a job in the woods. Working with troubled, hormonal teenage females. Taking them hiking and canoeing and camping. It was the 'perfect' job!
If the kids had actually WANTED to be there, it would be one thing
They had no desire to be there
and they tried to run away
and fight each other
and escape on their way to the OUTHOUSE
and it was over 3/4 of a mile to the nearest phone...It wasn't like we were in the city.
We were an hour from the closest walmart
5 miles in on a dirt road
Do you get the picture?
So I decided that wasn't the way to go. And I had heard about the Intermediate class that was being offered by one of my EMS employers. I was bored as an EMT-B.
Mostly through my intermediate class, I was terminated from one of my jobs...that was a bit of a problem. So I went back to work cor the same company that the less-than-desirable co-worker worked for. But it was a job. And he'd left. So it was fine!
And then he decided to come back
And I couldn't handle it
SO I talked to my boss and told him what happened, and i was told "well, we can't do anything because there is no police report".
So I went through the whole legal riddle...Come to find out that there was nothing that could be done.
And then my boss made me get a protection order.
And I applied for a job at a hospital that was closer to home, and paid better, and was more brain work.
And I had an arguement with a supervisor
And I met Dustin
And I had an interview
And got the job at the hospital that was closer to home, and paid better, and was more reliable.
And that's kind of the beginning...